Burning (out?)

This post finds me exhausted and a little lonely. Not the type of lonely like being cold and alone, but the type where I miss having just a little freedom to think about anything other than baby. This is typical of new motherhood. I am jealous of people who can sit on the porch and read, who can sit on the computer like nothing has changed, who get to think about anything other than baby.
So tired.
And for other people looking in, motherhood is not interesting to the masses, or entertaining. Its very personal. And I guess that is why its lonely. No one wants to really talk about any of it. Sure its good for a smug laugh or two, then its over.
I say this as my daughter is starting to wake up and Now I am excited.
She is such a thrill.
She laughs now.
It all happens so fast!